it happens
to everyone, at some point, it happens
there is your path and there is a better path. or at least you think it’s a better path at the time. but moving to the better path means moving to the side which kind of also means… you won’t be as far ahead in this new - potentially better - path as you would be in your original path
i’m at that junction right now and it makes me quite anxious, specially because my decisions no longer only impact me, now I have a family and.. well, it impacts them as well so where before I’d be more like “yeah, sure, I can catch up if it’s a better path” and not think so much more about it, now.. now I can’t do it
at least I can’t do it without thinking about it for quite a lot longer than I would have before, and I can’t do it without also talking about it with my family which in all honesty has been a much easier process than I would have imagined if I had tried to do that some years ago
but it’s such a special process, it makes you feel whole, family is a hell of a drug, taking decisions as a unit, a unit that you chose and that chose you… dude, that’s absolute crack in the most purest way ever
like.. what do you mean these choices shape a family? like months ago I was just planning on buying more mechanical keyboards and now I’m looking at all of these things? crazy
in the end, to be honest, I think my choices won’t change much in respect of the ones I would do before, when it was ‘just me”, but.. it still makes the process different and specially a loooot more stressing
all of this, to say, thank you to my wife
for supporting me now, and always, I will make sure you never regret your decisions of trusting me, supporting me, and believing that betting on me is betting on us